Busy & Sad Moment

13-16/10/2007
It was really busy days at work. Ward is packed with nearly half occupancy of pts.
Although total pts were low, the workload is heavy and tough. Almost all pts were bedbound and need nursing attention...personal hygiene & grooming, hourly parameter, hypocount monitoring, dressing and etc......
Huh!!! Not all that, the pt's relatives are also quite difficult to handle. The family members wanted we gave immediate attention to the pt. One of the very sick pt was mourning and groaning in pain at her operation site that her cry can be heard from outside. It was pain to hear that cry. She had been crying on and off since last few days even though she was in oral pain killer.
It was sad that she did not make it on 1 fine morning (15/10/07). She had a last breath when I just finished taking her hypocount reading. The monitor at the nursing counter showed that it has lost pt's pulse. Everything was so fast, doctor being called and resuscitation started. After almost 1 hour, it yield nothing to safe her. Family member were informed and they broke down...oh dear...
After a while later, I did a last office for her. All of a sudden, my tears started to fill my eyes. Very quickly, I sheded the tears away, afraid that my colleague EN noticed it. The pt had reminded me to my mother and out of a sudden I miss my mother so much...that it cause my tears running down without my conscious...
Later in the evening, while I was travelling in the MRT, my tears flow again when the pt's face reflect in my mind again. When I reached home later that night, I made a long distance call home and it was a big relieve when I heard my mom voice...Sigh!!!
And guess what!!! Another sick pt "left" within 24 hrs, the next day when I was on duty...